Saturday, my doctor dropped a big bomb on me. I've got diabetes. Blood sugar was 362! Average is between 60 and 100. Drastic changes coming in my future. My family can't afford me being a diabetic. We can't afford much of anything right now. Most of my friends are treating me like I'm about to die which, of course, just makes me more depressed. I am bi-polar as well, which is why I am so depressed in the first place. I am trying everything I know to keep in good spirits, but I am so very low. Sorry, I just had to get it off my chest. I know Ya'll won't treat me like I gonna die any day now. C'mon someone kick me in my @$$, and tell me to stop feeling sorry for myself!