Happy Birthday. Do what makes you happy. Every thinking man feels the opposite tugs of "prudence/compromise" and "integrity/independence". If life were simple, the choice between the two would be too. But sometimes prudent men get hit by buses, and I once knew a lady who ate fried chicken every day and lived to be 103. We never know the outcome of our actions with any certainty. So, what ever you do and whatever the outcome, live decisively. That's the mark of free will.