I am hoping I can land this job in a clothing store. What it boils down to is I need to have a job where I can use my brain and not my body. The body is shot, it will not hold up. I am not even sure if I can hold a regular nine to five though. I have worries. Like the days when the RA and the fibro tag team me so bad that it is all I can do just to hold my head up and barf for hours on end. Or the days it takes me hours, literally hours, to unkink all my joints and get moving. (Worse in the winter) Which is why I am trying to get my self though school, get a set of skills, use those skills to employ my self somehow, and find a way to live. In the mean time, I need something to tide me over, if it all possible. Some days I honestly can't function physically... Or mentally on those days when the fibro fog is a little to thick. Or the days when I am awake for days and days and days and can't sleep from the pain. I worry if I could even hold a job. How many days do I call in sick before I get canned?

Keep in mind, I don't take pain killers. Nor can I. Those... Those will screw your body up.

I just need to survive to the point where I am self supporting somehow. I am not sure how to do that. I want to, the desire is there, the way is unknown.

I just wish I knew what I was doing. That's all. All this self doubt is killing me.